Friday, May 22, 2009

i'm the crazy one.

jonas,

you are officially 2 weeks old today! TWO WEEKS! you have been a joy in just about every way possible, and i can't even begin to imagine life without you.

i consider myself pretty laid-back with you. i'm all about attachment parenting and trying to give you support and confidence as well as love. you eat when you are hungry, be it every 2 hours or every 4+ (although if we're leaving the house for a couple of hours at a time, i try to semi-schedule leaving the house for the minute you're done feeding so we can maximize our time).

and while i'm pretty easy going when it comes to you, i'm pretty sure that i've woken myself up many times to make sure you will still breathing. because that's sane.

you are currently snoozing in your crib for nap time...we are trying to slowly get you comfortable with sleeping in there so that when we eventually transition you from your co-sleeper to your crib you'll already be used to it.

i'm sort of struggling right now because i know i have to go back to work in the middle of june. jonas...i don't want to go back. i don't want to be away from you for 9 hours a day, i don't want to miss everything that you do, all of those milestones that i will just have to hear about second-hand. i know that i have to go back to work in june because our family needs me to...but it doesn't mean i have to like it. i'm going to see what my possibilities are--maybe only working monday-thursday or perhaps seeing if you could come in with me on fridays when i'm there just to answer phones and do busy work and we have no patients. or maybe if i could work from home on fridays...i'm sure we will figure something out.

i love you.
mommy

1 comment:

Jasmine said...

I think you have been doing soooo well!! I remember waking up and checking if Isaiah was breathing. I used to sneak in his room too. (Secret) I still do. I think it is that thing called love. Speaking of which, I love you!

Hope we can see you soon. I miss that Jonas.