Tuesday, August 26, 2008

wiggity whack.

I have an unnatural affinity for peanut butter sandwiches and cole slaw.

Not together, of course.


The end.

Monday, August 25, 2008

poundage

friends, Romans, countrymen, lend me your ear...

I've officially lost 5 pounds. It may be a small drop in the pond, but it's a start! Just like 40 more to go!

I'm proud of myself. After I loose 5 more pounds, I get to get a pedicure. After losing 20lbs I get to get my hair done. After 30lbs I get a massage. And after 40-45lbs I get new clothes.

Yay!

Friday, August 22, 2008

oook

A few days ago I gave lori (my awesome boss and momma of my flowergirl) pics from the wedding of maggie so she could have them. She sent them to her girl friends to see, and their response was that I didn't pass the nanny test because I was beautiful.

That, my friends, made my day. It's not something I hear from a lot of people, so hearing it from strangers was the best compliment ever.

I no want to wake up no more.

I am exhausted. Delirious. Tired. I want my mommy. Every morning I cry a little inside because daylight has broken once again.

This weekend is going to be delicious. Absolutely tasty. I plan on doing nothing this evening but working hard on cleaning our house tomorrow. It's definitely way too messy, so it will be good to rest tonight and get cracking on it later.

Praise the tiny baby Jesus we all know and love that I get to sleep on tomorrow. Amen.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I think I'm a sicko because I love the shelter and I sort of want to work there full time at night while I work full time during the day as well.

I'm weird. But I love the rush from working lots at different jobs because you can work for what feels forever and yet, it goes by so fast.

But I do miss john. I missed being there when he got home, already under the covers and being so excited to talk to him while he's getting undressed about his day.

Come on Saturday...snuggle day!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

depanced.

ahhhhhh I start at the shelter today! I'm completely nervous, kind of the same feeling as when you are little and start school for the year.

I hope no one gives me a swirlie.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

mini vacation

this weekend was fantastic! We got to go to Oklahoma city to visit Zach and carole for their huge engagement party.

It was a long and overdue visit; we have missed them, some of our best friends, so much. So getting to spend two full days with them was perfect! We got to tell stories, catch up, wedding shop, and just generally enjoy each other. Besides them, griffin, tim, Erin, and a ton of others all came too (there were about 30 people there!)...and it was great all just hanging out and relaxing.

Sigh. I hope we get to see our friends again soon. We love them.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

trust.

trust is a crucial component to any relationship. it's the greatest feeling in the world to feel no doubt at all about the person you're in this relationship with. life is easier, better, and there's a sense of serenity and calmness.

when trust is lost, when that bond is broken...it's a slow and yucky process to get it back to where it was before the trust was hurt. it's hard and painful to put yourself back into the position where you are terrified of being hurt again. and you don't want to.

but you have to. you have to put yourself into a heart of forgiveness and put yourself out there. you have to be able to put yourself into lthe position of wanting to trust again, and being able to trust again.

if you can't or won't, there is no way that the relationship can continue-it will end right there.

God, I pray that you let me experience the heart necessary to mend broken bonds and trust again. Grant me the ability and willingness of love in my heart to forgive and begin the healing process in my relationships that are hurt and broken.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

getting the keys

so I'm starting at the shelter on Tuesday! Yay! I'm so excited, even those these first few times will be just me shadowing people.

And last night I had my favorite burger of all time along with some damn good chocolate peanut butter pie. Yum.

Monday, August 11, 2008

they did it to Jesus, and they're doing it to me!

um, I'm watching 'I wanna work for diddy', and a woman just compared herself to Jesus.

You know...THE Jesus.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

crapola

it's been a whirlwind of crap the past few days. I went in for my background check and drug test for the shelter on thursday. I was sort of shocked about how much pee they needed. Let me just say that I barely made it.

My body is less pissed off at me, and I am quite glad that I wasn't pregnant (as was the assumption of several people). it's just not the right time for it for us.

Um, ooooooo we are going to Oklahoma city next weekend for Zach and carole's engagment and graduation party. We are so excited to see our friends, and can't wait to celebrate with them!

We baby-sat our friend's dog for the past two weeks, so he is buying us a night's stay at a hotel that has safari cats at it! He didn't say what it was called, but I bet that it's at turpentine creek! Exciting!

Monday, August 4, 2008

sick

If anyone ever doubted it, let me just tell you that my husband is the sweetest man I know.

About an hour ago, I thought was dying. I was vomitting, fever, intense headache-the works. I come into our room because I didn't know what to do, I hurt so bad. I start babbling about the pain and puke and wanting to know where the drill was so I could relieve the pressure from my brain (and I was serious). John wakes up, takes me in his arms, and puts my head on his chest. And we laid there, him rubbing my temple and kissing the top of my head while I calmed down and the pain lessened.

If I had ever not felt complete love from him, this erased every speck of it.

In other news, I made blueberry muffins from scratch. They did not suck at all.

And I go in thursday for my background check for the shelter.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

sinners.

We ended up not going to russellville this weekend.

So instead we've stayed home and been lazy.

Psst. Can I tell you a secret? We're skipping church tomorrow. I feel bad, but church planting in thailand ranks right up there with stirrup pants in my book. They both leave me wanting to pick at something, and make me completely distracted.

Ill go say like, 40 hail marys as I watch a cops marathon, okay?

Saturday, August 2, 2008

chumbawumba

I went to walmart today to print off wedding photos. I was completely stoked to see that there was a kiosk where you can do it yourself-and the pics print out instantly!

Unfortunately, as I approached, a man who looks like the dad carl winslow from family matters, intervened. In his 'kodak' polo, he felt it necessary to show me how to do EVERYTHING. Everything. And yet, he had no clue how to work the freaking machine.

After 45 dreadful minutes, he left me alone...just in time for the country music concert that started 5 feet from me.

I wish I was kidding.

Only in arkansas will you just be wanting to print some damn pictures to be interrupted by a country concert in the middle of wal-mart.

Just shoot me now.

Friday, August 1, 2008

diet lifestyle

Ahh, food, how I love you. But you stick way too well to my butt and thighs. So things must change!

The biggest change is going to be meat. I'm going to have 2 meat proteins a week (one being on sundays, the other at my discretion). The other meals will have plant proteins, be it soy related (a complete protein) or combos of several incomplete proteins to get the balance correct.

I'm starting to physically measure out food to correct portion sizes. Did you know a serving size of strawberry yogurt is 8oz? That's a lot of food. (That was my lunch yesterday). And it was only like, 200 calories.

That's another thing. Calorie counting. Its so easy to do. I'm not adding up exact numbers, but getting close. Yesterday was a low calorie day bc I felt like throwing up most the day, so I was around 1000. Too low, especially considering I worked out too. Today I'm feeling good though, so I'm probably looking at 1500 to 1700. Low still, but not bad low.

Also, did you know 1 mile of walking is burning about 100 calories?

I'm just so excited to really be ready to do this. So I'm going to bore you, but about once a week ill probably update at how I'm doing...how much weight lost, am I going crazy without cheetos, did I hijack an ice cream truck...you know, the usual.